Top Ten Tuesdays..

Top Ten Tuesdays…

The subject that was originally the topic for today was suppose to be the Top Ten Authors I’d Like to See on a Reality TV Show. Not too bad when you talk about the top ten authors that you have, but when you try to figure out them on a Reality TV Show.. Actually let me try something my own way with this…

My own reality version of a reality tv show..

Big Brother (Authors)

They would be roommates in a house together, but it would be all Big Brother style..

I think the authors I would like to see in the same house together would be..

Sophie Kinsella, Meg Cabot, P.C. Cast, Richelle Mead, Veronica Roth, Neta Jackson, Richard Castle…

I need to come up with 3 more, and working in a library, this shouldn’t really be all that hard..

Mo Willems, Sarah Dessen, Joyce Meyer…

Could you see this Big Brother round up? I think that this would be a great season, and I would be interested to find out who would win the grand prize…

So, thoughts on my choices? Anyone that may round this season out better than what I have currently have? Remember, its all about Authors!!

Friday Drabble:

The air was sweet, the time was right, now if only the mood were right, she thought. Looking out the window at the birds pecking around and cocking their heads, she smiled thinking back before she had made this decision. She sighed, turned back to the task at hand, and picked up the pen that was in front of her. Pressing the pen onto the paper, she signed on the line over and over again, and then when all lines were signed, sat back in relief. The deed was finally done. “Congratulations,” her agent chirped. “The house is now yours.”

 

 A drabble is a very short story of exactly 100 words. Exactly…so no cheating. Feel free to join in and write your own drabbles on Fridays and tag them with “friday drabble” and on Twitter with the hashtag #fridaydrabble. 

Thankful Thursdays..

I was looking to try something new, so I thought that I would give this a go.. Thankful Thursdays huh, okay let’s see where I am at..

Well let’s start this easy enough,

I am thankful for good weather, for good walks, for good friends, for GOOD in my life.

I had a split shift today so I was able to take the time in between work and go for a walk in the park with my good friend Lo. It was a nice get away from the clutter, the work, just being able to catch up on her life and mine.

So that is what my Thankful Thursday is all about today!

A good friend and a good time together!

 

In A Rut, Time, and talking in circles..

I feel like I am getting in a rut, writing about some of the same stuff that I have written about before. In a world as big as ours is, with ideas that range all over the place, with unending thoughts, books, and people, I just feel compelled to write about the same old thing. 

I have been writing a lot about time, plans, friends, goals, and I may get an occasional new idea but basically they are all starting to become the same.

Like today for instance, I sat down and started to type and you know what I started to type?

“Time keeps ticking away.” by DC Talk 

Haven’t I already done that post? I think I have, if I look back into my past posts. I am not going to do that right now because I feel like that takes some effort, and if you haven’t seen my older posts, I think it would be fun for you guys to go back and see if you can find it, maybe read a few of the older posts. I have come a ways since every post I add on here, and it could be fun for you guys to look back and see what is there…

Anyway, I still feel like saying some of the stuff on my mind so I am sorry if I am repeating something I have said before but maybe I just didn’t really cover it, or maybe the same thing is still plaguing me? I can’t really figure out the best way to describe it, I just know that there is a reason and so I will do what I feel I must. 

Time is really ticking, ticking, ticking. I feel it going by and sadly can only watch it go. I can’t stop it, turn it back, or pause it. You can only live it. Time isn’t something that is never-ending, we all have whatever time we are given, no more, no less..

So what are you doing with yours? Are you using it to the best of your ability? Are you making your time count? Are you putting your mark on someone else’s life so that when you are gone, you will be remembered? Do you want to be remembered? Have you found your purpose? Do you find time to hang out with your friends? Are you making memories? 

I have been asking myself these questions a lot lately. I like to think that I am doing all this. I am making my life count. I am hanging out with friends when I can schedule it, and I am making the time that we hang out matter. I am making them feel like they matter in my life! I have memories from road trips, moving friends into apartments, some not so good things, friends helping during those times, bowling parties, bowling in leagues, VBS, water balloons, and I am sure there are many more!

Those are the times when life matters, and you are making the most of it. The times that friends feel appreciated, loved, and thought of. Let’s not forget that.. Let’s make our time, whatever amount we have, matter. Let’s help others to know that they matter, and the time that we have with them is precious.. 

Okay, I am going to stop now, otherwise I could go on and on and on…..

 

Goals, plans, and time

Have you ever set a goal for yourself? I mean seriously, not a funny joke type thing. A goal that regardless what you have to do, what it takes to accomplish it,  you are going to do it? Yeah, me neither! Ha! Okay, anyway, it wasn’t exactly a goal,  but it was a suggestion to myself that should have been a little easier to follow that what I am doing right now. I planned to write on this blog, and write ALOT! Not like it is going write now where I write when I think and have a question to ask, but just get in the habit and add a post once a week, really that was all I was going for at the beginning. I was hoping that with the inspiration of once a week, I would make it a little more of a habit, and then add a few days so I would write maybe 3 or 4 times a week.. and hopefully move along from there until I am finally writing every day. I don’t even have a really good excuse as to why this is not occurring. I am busy sure, but I should be able to set aside some time, say 15 or 20 minutes and just write. I have the app for it, so its not like I can blame not having a laptop or computer with me.. Its just been a blank session of the mind. I just have nothing to really write about. (Which isn’t really an excuse either, since apparently I can even write about not having anything to write about.. Okay, enough rambling for now.. All I can say is I am sorry and really can not make any promises to do better, I just can’t plan for it

My “Wanting to Matter” Dilemma

(Please respect this post, its my opinions and my thoughts, putting myself out there and seeing what happens)

Ok, so I have been trying to plan a fun hang-out, you know, something that would be a great time had by all, that some friends may have the time to attend. I tried once and failed in the end with one person that could make it work in there schedule. I thought, “No biggie, change the date, maybe get a few more friends to come.” I mean, I understand that work schedules are all over the place, it’s hard to truly try to plan a party and have a good number show up.

Let’s see, I should probably start by saying that I started with a facebook message to my friends, asking the dates they would be available and I went from there.. Is that bad? (My events usually have small crowds, so I was hoping this would be a way to at least TRY to get my friends to come.) I hope it’s not, because I did it for suggestions of dates.

But now where I am at, I don’t even know if the party is going to work or not. It’s not like I am asking much, just 2 hours of time to spend with me, fun right?  And don’t get all mad at me for saying it that way, I am expressing my thoughts and my own opinions.. (I have been told that is a good thing, but it’s still being decided by the jury)  The party was a free thing I won so no big deal if it doesn’t get used, but wait.. kind of .. well let me try to explain.. You see, I have been known to be a bit sensitive about things.. I know that is a flaw that I have, and am working with it..

So my sensitivity is coming out with this and I begin to think about it more on a personal matter. I mean, I know that I matter to God, I get that. I really don’t need that reminder. God and I are cool! It’s just, sometimes I wonder about others and whether I matter to them. Family, yes I know that I matter in the eyes of my family, well some of my family, maybe all, its touch and go with them (lol)..

Friends, I have a couple that I am pretty sure that I matter (and again this is touch and go, but I think that I do, maybe)..

Anyway, I want to know that if I matter to God, and my family, and I have mattered to certain friends in the past, then are my feelings of wanting to feel like I matter now to people invalid? Do I just take the info that I mattered in the past to them, and figure that is still the case? Does this even matter?

I can answer that last question, by my own feelings and emotions, this subject certainly matters! God wants to make sure that we are aware that we matter to Him, so why wouldn’t he want people to matter to others? I have heard in church services that people matter and we should make them feel like they do, but what do you do when you are the one that feels like you need someone to tell you that you matter?

(and I know that some may laugh or think this is funny, or whatever, but this is kind of a serious subject and I really want it to be thought of as such.. I hope people can read this and be respectful of it)

This is where I am at right now, fragile and unsure… Does it matter to matter to people?

Right now, all I know, is that I matter to GOD and I matter to family.. and maybe a friend or two..

Can that be enough, even if I don’t see the proof?

Yardwork, friendships, and yes, even a bit of effort!!

As a homeowner, I am needing to star a bit of upkeep on my house. Simple little projects, I thought. Nothing too major. Yeah, right! I guess I thought that yard work would be kind of fun and that it would be fast and easy. Hahaha, I couldn’t have been more off base. As I looked around my backyard, and realized the tasks that lay ahead, I started to think, do I really want to do this? I could just leave it as is and let the stuff just grow and die. That is the easiest way to do it.Then I stopped, and thought about what just went through my head. Easiest? Is that what I have decided to become? Someone that just lets things happen because that is the easiest route? Shouldn’t I want the way that was a bit harder? God gave us mountains to learn how to climb.. At least that is what Lonestar says. Shouldn’t I want to learn how to take on the harder stuff? That is what makes us grow. If you do the stuff that isn’t easy, that is when you reap the reward. That is when you grow. That is when God smiles down and says, it is good. You have made me proud. Not when you are lazy and just say, yeah it is fine as it is because that requires no effort on my part.

I see the same thing with my friendships. I could just sit around let it do as it will. But if I do that, how many friendships will I truly be engaged in? How much would my friends resent me for not making that effort, that push that shows that I care enough about our friendship to get involved, to not just sit back and let it do as it will. I want friendships that make me proud, because I have cultivated them, I have put the effort into it and helped it to blossom to a higher place. I want to be like God and be able to stand back and think, this is good and it makes me proud. 

Isn’t that something that you want to? A garden to be proud of? A friendship that is better than it was? 

Movies from the weekend!

It’s Sunday again! Sorry that I haven’t posted anything for a bit of time, I really couldn’t come up with anything to say. I still don’t really know what i should be saying, I just know that I should try to write down something and hope for the best. I have been trying to watch some of the newer movies and see what I think about them.

I watched The Muppets. I was and still am a huge fan of the Muppets, but this movie confused me a little bit. If you are a real muppet fan, you will remember that back in Muppets Take Manhattan the minister was changed. It was assumed that the minister there was a real minister by the way that Miss Piggy responded to Kermit’s question about why Gonzo was not playing the part as planned. So in that movie, I always believed that Miss Piggy and Kermit were married. In the newest movie though, they talk about how they always talked about getting married but how it never happened. I was kind of put off by the way the first song started too.. It was just kind of out of right field with the way it happened, I really didn’t know what to expect but that was kind of out of place.

Then I watched Swing Time. Love the old classics with Fred Astaire and Ginger Rogers. Oh to watch more of those types of movies. I love the dance scenes. This movie was about a guy who was a gambler, he was planning on marrying a pretty girl, but his friends ruined his wedding day. Talking to her father though, he was able to get the father to agree to let him have another chance, as long as he won 25 grand. 

After that, I put in Tin Tin. I really didn’t watch it too close though, I was working on getting my papers organized into my file cabinets and this film wasn’t bad. It just didn’t pull in my attention all that much.

So this is what I thought of the movies of the weekend, have you seen any good movies lately?

Sunday Blues.. are real!

Tomorrow is Monday, which sadly means back to work. I have had a nice vaca from work since my boss had given me 2 days off along with my extra time I took off on Wednesday. It means that today is still Sunday. I have been talking to a counselor lately, and she made me aware that there is a real thing called “Sunday Blues”. Its basically feeling down on Sunday. It occurs quite a bit.
I have felt it from time to time on Sundays when its just me. Tonight though, i don’t really feel that blue. That might be because I am looking forward to this upcoming week. A coworker that has been gone a number of Mondays is finally going to back tomorrow, that in itself makes me happy. I actually missed working with her on our Mondays. We have worked so often on Mondays together that we have everything down to a science. I kind of missed the system since the other coworker doesnt always work on Mondays.
Then i also have a bowling date tomorrow with a good friend of mine.. that gives me another exciting thing to look forward to.. So maybe that is part of the key to keeping the Sunday Blues away, make sure to have plans for the following week. When you have something to keep your mind off the fact that its a new week, it makes things better! Okay i guess thats about it! Hopefully your Sunday is going very well..

Life.. freak out and let it go!

Life, it happens right? Things change all the time, plans change, life throws you a curve ball, things go up in the air all the time.. should it throw you? No. I believe in following the stream and swimming with the situation. It may be surprising for a second, but then you get over it and move on. It may turn out to be one of the best days you’ve had in the longest time. It could turn out bad, but you will never know how things will go until you just go with it. Life can come at ya quickly, but what would you do if you didn’t take things as they come? Would you just say no thanks and let life pass you by? Would you sit outside and pout while the fun is happening inside? Could you really say that you don’t want to do it? Would you be able to live with that? Some situations, you could say yes i can say no and be fine. Others, there may not be that option and the best to offer there is to grin and go with it. Don’t be the type to fight change, life whatever you want to call it.
All you can do is bear whatever change is coming, look it square in the eyes, tell it “i am not gonna let you get me all worried” and then take it out for coffee and become friends with the change.
Or if you really must Avril Lavigne advises that you “freak out and let it go.”