I am working through things.. I hope it goes well!

::::Disclaimer… This is my own opinions and my own thoughts and my own venting time:::

Today  I feel as though I have been complaining way too much! I was painting in my bedroom (the trim is almost done.. just ran out of paint) and talking to my mom and a really good friend of mine. I was talking about stuff that I am learning about myself. I had a counseling session today too! Lately in my counseling sessions, I have been able to dig a little deeper and learn more about who I am, how I am feeling, and why I am the way I am. 

Today’s topic was about relationships.. We talked about my friends and the holidays and busyness and all the bothersome stuff that was starting to get to me. 

If you are hanging out with a friend, should you be texting with another friend? With this new world of technology where you are available all the time at a few touches of a button, how much is too much? Should you turn your phone completely off, or just set it to vibrate? Could you send texts for a whole conversation and not be considered rude? Or should you let the other person know that you are hanging with a different friend and that you will get back to them when you leave? It’s a hard thing to figure out, because if you are really good friends with the person you are hanging out with, they understand that you have others that you talk to, but it still could be considered kind of rude to be texting while hanging out, because that could also imply that you would rather be with the person that you are texting. 

How about time-slotting? If you get organized, you start adding all your events to your calendar.. Friends that want to meet for dinner, work schedule, doc. appointments, etc. As your doing that, are you starting to lose some time also?(Thinking, if I meet this friend at 6 for dinner, I can plan to go meet another friend for a movie night at 8, and then late drinks with so-and-so around 10 or 11..) I have a few that plan that way, which I am not putting down the schedule that they keep. I am impressed that they keep them selves so busy, but has your time-slotting of friends ever back-fired? (Crap, dinner lasted a whole lot longer than I thought, this could set the whole thing back.. I better text the others, unless… maybe I can …) This gets irritating when you are on the receiving end of this, time-slotted to hang out and 3, then find out that you have a whole 2 hours and then your friend has to move on to (in your thoughts) better things.. Like you were some kind of time-waster/ time-holder.. Yeah, have you seen this happen?

Have you ever had someone ask how you are doing? I am sure that we all hear this all the time. (How are you? Fine.) Have you ever really been fine? I don’t know that I have ever answered with “fine” unless it was that I didn’t want to get into how I really feel. I used to always say the same thing.. When someone would ask me how I was, I would answer with “fine” and then in the recesses of my mind say, “just don’t look me in the eyes.” I feel like if you ask, you should really mean it, and if you really mean it, then be ready for an answer that isn’t just fine. Or at least expect a friend to be honest about their feelings. If they tell you that they aren’t really ok, don’t get religious on them. It’s okay to later, but be ready to really talk to the person, don’t just say.. talk to God! I do that already being the kind of person that I am.. When I tell you that I am not okay, I am not looking for an answer for God, I am looking for a chance to share with you my mood and feelings so that I can get your opinion, your thoughts, your support, and maybe even a hug if the mood calls for it..

Okay boy I really do sound whiny with this post, but these were the things that are kind of irritations that I kind of need to work through and figure out what to do about them.. 

One more question, would you tell someone if these were part of who they are? Have these ever bugged you? 

Resolutions and clutter-filled (dreams)?

It’s been a New Year for a good 2 weeks plus.. so what have you been doing? Has your New Year been all that you hoped it would be? Do you feel that you have a new start?

I don’t really see the new start.. it’s still the same stuff, just a different year to have things going on in. I like the idea of trying to make things better for this year, but I also feel that if things were meant to be made better, why would you wait for the New Year? When you see that a change should be made to better yourself, do it.. don’t wait until the New Year just to try and fail at it.. (I know that not everyone fails at the resolution thing, but lots do because of the old habits getting in the way. Do you really want to work at a resolution when the old way was going okay?) Start early, and make the choice to stick with it, so then you succeed and make things better.

I am working on getting some organizing done at the house. I have tons of clutter, and nowhere to really store it, which begs the question, what do I do with it now? I can add a few shelves around the room, buy a few totes to place it in.. but I really don’t have a lot of free space to store those clutter-helpers. What can I say? My house is small.. and I have no basement, attic, or garage. I have a 3 bedroom, 1 bathroom ranch-style house. Right now I am using the middle bedroom (the spare room) as my own personal storage room, but I would like to be able to rent out both my rooms to help with some of the expenses. So where does that leave the clutter? 

Well I guess time will tell…

TO BE CONTINUED…

Lost: Pep (Please Return)

Okay, so my pep is gone.. just gone..

I wonder if it decided that it wanted to go travel the world, or it’s just playing hide and seek.. Maybe it is giving some pep to a friend of mine who was in need of it. I would have to say that it has been missing for a little over um, 3 weeks? I have happy states of mind and good times, and then I have some not so good times.. But sadly the pep that was around me has just vanished.

Maybe I am just getting older and the pep that I had when I was younger has turned to older pep. I don’t really know how to explain this..

“Well, I tell you, I don’t really understand.. I fell down the hill and got glue on my hands..”

Okay sorry for that brief turn signal, the first line there went with what I was saying, but the hill part doesn’t really go..

Well anyway, if you happen to see my pep, or notice it laying around.. could you let me know? Or if you have it, could you return it?

I kind of miss it and would like it back..

Thanks!